TURNING BACK THE CLOCK

Well once again, time has slipped past me quicker than I would ever think it would. But this writing is not about time slipping by, it is about the things that we sometimes say or do; it is the times when we should wear our shoes on our feet and not put them in our mouths. It is thinking before speaking, to truly think with clarity before the words spring forth.

For me, this is what I did, and of course, have done many times, sometimes it is an automatic reaction; and sometimes it is a form of self expression, feeling comfortable with someone, however not so comfortable that it might hurt the other person. I work with a gentleman who I have high esteem for, who I look up to as he walks his talk, and I see just how humble he truly is, and it is like feeling like the well is dry and you keep going back to see if you can fill your pail with water. The teachings, the awareness of gratitude, being humble is truly wonderful for me, for it makes me look at my life, to be grateful for all that was and is now. The 'was' has pushed me forward, however, I must say very reluctantly, but never the less, pushed me to be where I am now.

For many years, I felt I was being guided and directed; but I would never allow myself to rest, I kept pushing forward thinking this was the next step, only to find that it was not, only another diversion. Now looking back at time, they say, 'nothing ever happens before its time' and I must say, this I believe in my heart to be true, and life has shown me just this.

To be humble, to be grateful for the people in my life, to laugh, cry and be angry, but to be able to heal from deep within; that is the gift I am presently receiving. I think this is quite wonderful. So in turning back the clock, this can never be done, however, we can grow through experience and gain wisdom to correct the mistakes we experienced and to know that every second counts, don't waste it thinking you have a lifetime, as it could be years of bliss or years of hell.

My choosing is one of bliss, and each day it gets better and better, and it is because I am open to learn and to listen; I thought my cup was full before, but it is a different cup now, and it is just overflowing with compassion and awareness, and as I said gratitude. We shall see what comes up next!

JOY

What is 'joy'? What is the meaning of this word, well the thesaurus states - delight, happiness, pleasure, enjoyment, bliss, ecstasy, elation, thrill, joyfullness are all part of joy. So upon reviewing all these words, where is it that I fit in or where is it that you fit in? Where and how much joy do you have in your life in your world?

Sometimes we are so busy with life, that we forget that life is to be joyful, to be childlike, to laugh and play, regardless of your age or gender. We get so caught up in what someone else might think of us, we forget to live, , to recognize we have only this one body, this one breath and not to put it on hold for tomorrow, as it may never come.

I had an opportunity to visit my youngest brother yesterday, he lives out of town, and I do not see him or talk with him very often. It was so wonderful to connect with him, and when I was leaving I gave him a hug, like it was the last one I would have an opportunity to give him; this is the way, we should be living our lives; today! The now is our last breath, our last opportunity to experience what is important, instead we take for granted that everyone will be there for us tomorrow, or even like we may be there tomorrow. There are no guarantees in this life, if our time has come to an end, then life ends, in this physical body.

Which brings me to the opposite of joy - which is 'sorrow', so what and how am I going to choose to live my life - in JOY, or in sorrow. It is up to me and only me, just as it is for you... so pick one, as you cannot live both at the same time. Just a simple smile can bring joy to someone's life. Is it no wonder why I am called 'sunshine' as a smile is like ray of sunshine - let's all live our life with joy and spread it out into the world, for I feel there is a shortage of it... Until we meet again, may the joy of knowing your greatness spread through your entire being-ness and may it light up the world, for what we are all wanting - world peace!!!
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Today!

It has been awhile since I actually wrote something; I don't know about you, but time seems to be speeding up faster than ever before. It is August 3 today, and it feels like Mother Autumn is just around the corner, getting ready with her paint brushes. We can't say, hey where is the summer, as there has not been one, it appears that summer in Alberta keeps getting shorter every year. Times have changed; and we are all on this train heading in the same direction - change -. it is totally inevitable.
So what are we doing with the changes; be it in our careers, jobs, relationships, friends and families. For me, my whole world has changed, however, I tend to drift back into the old energy looking for something familiar. Most importantly with the change, I am working on healing me, taking responsibility for my actions, my thoughts. Trusting is one factor, surrendering and allowing is the second.
I have been reading many books and searching for an understanding of what I am all about, and found that there is nothing out there; it is all inside. Many lightworkers feel that their destiny is to change the world; to heal others, etc. Why do I say this, because that has been my road I have been driving and walking down, however, now I know that it is important to live my life, to live it fully in joy and harmony. Most importantly, to live with myself and love myself unconditionally, to express myself without judgment and to just be, trust and allow. Lip service is wonderful, however not walking the talk; means nothing.

We are all on this earth for a specific purpose, but first it starts with ourselves. Just keep looking and allowing, you will show up when least expected. Enjoy your day, I am...hugs

Newer beginnings, once again!

NEW BEGINNINGS

I have been on a very long journey, you ask how long? Very long, and on this journey, I got to wear many hats. Now these are not just ordinary hats; in fact, let me share the kind of hats I wore.

For most of my life, I wore my 'fear' hat; this was very successful in keeping me in a safe dark place with no light. I wore my 'victim' hat, one which was more like a hood, I know many of you know this one, the 'victim hood'; and then there was the 'anger' hat, the 'separation' hat, the 'judgement' hat.

One would think my head would be compressed down into my knees by now with the weight of all of the hats, and in essence, indeed I was, not physically appearing so. However, as of last week, I moved forward; I took many of these hats, and sent them off to the ethers, fully knowing that the types of hats I am now choosing is much different.

This is where my 'new beginnings' commence! My new hat of 'gratitude', of 'unconditional love' one which I wear proudly just made for me, and only me; my hat of 'abundance' my hat of 'compassion', my hat of 'joy', and 'laughter'. My hat of 'trust' and 'surrendering' and 'allowing' these fit me very well, and when I look in my mirror, I see reflections of bliss; of amazement that indeed it is possible.

What has happened to me? I have empowered myself, I found the strength and the courage to step forth and become the essence of who I truly am. When I first created 'Catch the Light', the new awareness, it sounded wonderful, I thought I knew what it was about, the integration of the new world, the integration of the feminine into the masculine. All sounds wonderful doesn't it? For those who understand metaphysics, you will know what I am talking about.

However, things have changed, the shifting, the understanding and courage to remove all my old hats; of course being mindful of them; but removing them and replacing with my newly found hats; which of course, were always there, but buried so deep in the depths of my being, I could not see them, nor find them.

So, it is with new beginnings, which I see and know that my contracts are complete, the essence of who I am and what I am to become unfolds in front of me. The peace on earth, which so comes to the forefront of my life, has started to unfold, and it can only get better and better each and every moment. Yes, to follow my bliss!
Namaste! In loving light!

31-01-09

How time flies when we are having fun? Am I having fun? Good question, and one that when I truly become honest with myself, I find that I have not had much time to have fun. My friends Wil and Akiyah are off in South America, and I guess you could say, they are having fun.

I was in Sylvan Lake last week-end at a Kryon conference, and that was delightful to see my friend Lee Carroll once again, as well as others whom I met years ago and still remain friends.

I wrote to a very good friend of mine in the US and explained to her about how detached or in simpler terms, how weird I have been feeling... she in turn, shared that this is normal, many people are feeling same.

It is like we are all in a holding pattern, and not able to move, so I guess I will stay put and just be.. as Eckert Tolle says, 'be in the now'.. enjoy and breathe...

HAPPY NEW YEAR - 2009

So a new year has come upon us! 2008 is just history, and 2009 is awakening. Did I create any new year resolutions? Did you?
Until later....