TURNING BACK THE CLOCK

Well once again, time has slipped past me quicker than I would ever think it would. But this writing is not about time slipping by, it is about the things that we sometimes say or do; it is the times when we should wear our shoes on our feet and not put them in our mouths. It is thinking before speaking, to truly think with clarity before the words spring forth.

For me, this is what I did, and of course, have done many times, sometimes it is an automatic reaction; and sometimes it is a form of self expression, feeling comfortable with someone, however not so comfortable that it might hurt the other person. I work with a gentleman who I have high esteem for, who I look up to as he walks his talk, and I see just how humble he truly is, and it is like feeling like the well is dry and you keep going back to see if you can fill your pail with water. The teachings, the awareness of gratitude, being humble is truly wonderful for me, for it makes me look at my life, to be grateful for all that was and is now. The 'was' has pushed me forward, however, I must say very reluctantly, but never the less, pushed me to be where I am now.

For many years, I felt I was being guided and directed; but I would never allow myself to rest, I kept pushing forward thinking this was the next step, only to find that it was not, only another diversion. Now looking back at time, they say, 'nothing ever happens before its time' and I must say, this I believe in my heart to be true, and life has shown me just this.

To be humble, to be grateful for the people in my life, to laugh, cry and be angry, but to be able to heal from deep within; that is the gift I am presently receiving. I think this is quite wonderful. So in turning back the clock, this can never be done, however, we can grow through experience and gain wisdom to correct the mistakes we experienced and to know that every second counts, don't waste it thinking you have a lifetime, as it could be years of bliss or years of hell.

My choosing is one of bliss, and each day it gets better and better, and it is because I am open to learn and to listen; I thought my cup was full before, but it is a different cup now, and it is just overflowing with compassion and awareness, and as I said gratitude. We shall see what comes up next!